Saturday, April 17, 2010

Are my pants really on fire right now???

I haven't felt like this about a fight in a while. Well, this isn't really a fight, I can always just go BOOM I'm okay right now.

I'm not crying or whining right now, I'm not feeling hurt, just affronted. I don't want to draw attention TO it, but yet, I don't want to leave this situation entirely knotted up and undiscussed.

Alright Mr. Blog (who is now male), it is time to have a bit of tea-time chit chat.

I just don't like being told that I "Lied" when I really do not see how I lied. Sure, it's great to feel like I didn't lie, but it's only a problem when said OTHER party continues to feel lied to. It's even more difficult when the question is no longer to be talked about. Normally I'd shrug it off, and I can, but I'm not going back to that whole "let's hide things for others benefits" thing.

I just feel an itch, a bother, and I want it gone. Have I really lied? If so, how?

Why is this so significant? It's not, really, it's just a bit of a frustrating twinge in my gut. What did I ever do to deserve those words, "you lied" about such a silly topic? It's clearly me who suffered from whatever stupid little thing I did, and obviously I did not lie, as I did follow up on everything I said. I don't control the fact that emails get sent and things are supposed to get done. Spending 30 extra minutes on the computer should not constitute a lie.

Yes, my wording may have been exaggerated, but that's what happens in fun and good times. I know, hit a nerve much? But it's not just me.

I feel like since you didn't want to discuss the issue, me trying to reconcile my sins within myself right now is rightfully ....I don't want to use a bad term... but making you very upset/frustrated. Really, the feeling is always mutual.

I don't want to be told I lied. It was a silly little comment with which I happily let slip from my mouth, and it was nothing more. I went to brush my teeth, answered a few emails, and went to bed. I would like to either be told that you didn't think I lied, or if you still do, then I would like to spend the rest of the evening reconsidering my ability to tell the truth. It is beginning to feel like hurt, but I'll just grin and bear it.

I am not lying to you.

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