My dad passed away from cancer in October, October 1 to be exact. I have completed my first year of law school, I have average grades, wrote on to a journal that wasn't law review...all in all not too bad for the trauma we have been going through. I still want to write a book and travel the world though.
Not much more to say right now.
Sunday, July 15, 2012
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Cancer, Careers, and Karma
Yes, my father has cancer. Diagnosed early this month with metastatic malignant melanoma, doctors can only say so much. I have experienced intense need to be strong and resolute in this time, as hearing grim words such as "months" sends chills down my small family's spines. However, this whole experience has brought me much closer to God as I begin to learn more about the Bible I probably should have been closer to anyways.
My life...it's kind of sad right now, but this cancer puts it all into perspective. Hope, faith, and Love, I have always stood by these three. I believe most in Love, then Hope, but Faith has been so difficult. Faith is now building in me. Sure, I can't go out of state to law school...sure, I may have to put MBA school off....sure, I may lack any or all ability to communicate with the male sex about anything besides school, but I have a family (and God will take care of the rest).
I just wanted to write because it's good to have updates here and there in life. Checking in at 21 years old, I have to say the prospect of running my father's world is a little bit daunting. However, this is putting my future goals in order. I want to help children, and watching this whole cancer thing makes me want to put a health care spin on my social entrepreneurship goals. It's good to write down goals, because then they are more likely to come true.
In my case, I would like to:
1. Go to grad school and get good grades
2. Join some clubs and work on research in grad school
3. Write a book
4. Travel more of the world
5. Build a solid network and maintain it
6. Learn to communicate with men and become friends with them
7. Eventually start dating
8. Find a solid job for 5+ years and then branch off to my own business
I feel like at 21 I am in a fairly good place to do all of this, but right now my family needs me most. Thank you God for maintaining my life to this place. OH I forgot to mention that I graduated! Fun times indeed.
Positives of staying home:
1. Hang with Banak in town
2. Cheap
3. Support family
My life...it's kind of sad right now, but this cancer puts it all into perspective. Hope, faith, and Love, I have always stood by these three. I believe most in Love, then Hope, but Faith has been so difficult. Faith is now building in me. Sure, I can't go out of state to law school...sure, I may have to put MBA school off....sure, I may lack any or all ability to communicate with the male sex about anything besides school, but I have a family (and God will take care of the rest).
I just wanted to write because it's good to have updates here and there in life. Checking in at 21 years old, I have to say the prospect of running my father's world is a little bit daunting. However, this is putting my future goals in order. I want to help children, and watching this whole cancer thing makes me want to put a health care spin on my social entrepreneurship goals. It's good to write down goals, because then they are more likely to come true.
In my case, I would like to:
1. Go to grad school and get good grades
2. Join some clubs and work on research in grad school
3. Write a book
4. Travel more of the world
5. Build a solid network and maintain it
6. Learn to communicate with men and become friends with them
7. Eventually start dating
8. Find a solid job for 5+ years and then branch off to my own business
I feel like at 21 I am in a fairly good place to do all of this, but right now my family needs me most. Thank you God for maintaining my life to this place. OH I forgot to mention that I graduated! Fun times indeed.
Positives of staying home:
1. Hang with Banak in town
2. Cheap
3. Support family
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
God Speaks
I was feeling down and stuff when I looked at my arm in the mirror. There is a very nice heart shaped mark on my shoulder, and it doesn't make sense. God's little reminder of what to think about. <3
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Are my pants really on fire right now???
I haven't felt like this about a fight in a while. Well, this isn't really a fight, I can always just go BOOM I'm okay right now.
I'm not crying or whining right now, I'm not feeling hurt, just affronted. I don't want to draw attention TO it, but yet, I don't want to leave this situation entirely knotted up and undiscussed.
Alright Mr. Blog (who is now male), it is time to have a bit of tea-time chit chat.
I just don't like being told that I "Lied" when I really do not see how I lied. Sure, it's great to feel like I didn't lie, but it's only a problem when said OTHER party continues to feel lied to. It's even more difficult when the question is no longer to be talked about. Normally I'd shrug it off, and I can, but I'm not going back to that whole "let's hide things for others benefits" thing.
I just feel an itch, a bother, and I want it gone. Have I really lied? If so, how?
Why is this so significant? It's not, really, it's just a bit of a frustrating twinge in my gut. What did I ever do to deserve those words, "you lied" about such a silly topic? It's clearly me who suffered from whatever stupid little thing I did, and obviously I did not lie, as I did follow up on everything I said. I don't control the fact that emails get sent and things are supposed to get done. Spending 30 extra minutes on the computer should not constitute a lie.
Yes, my wording may have been exaggerated, but that's what happens in fun and good times. I know, hit a nerve much? But it's not just me.
I feel like since you didn't want to discuss the issue, me trying to reconcile my sins within myself right now is rightfully ....I don't want to use a bad term... but making you very upset/frustrated. Really, the feeling is always mutual.
I don't want to be told I lied. It was a silly little comment with which I happily let slip from my mouth, and it was nothing more. I went to brush my teeth, answered a few emails, and went to bed. I would like to either be told that you didn't think I lied, or if you still do, then I would like to spend the rest of the evening reconsidering my ability to tell the truth. It is beginning to feel like hurt, but I'll just grin and bear it.
I am not lying to you.
I'm not crying or whining right now, I'm not feeling hurt, just affronted. I don't want to draw attention TO it, but yet, I don't want to leave this situation entirely knotted up and undiscussed.
Alright Mr. Blog (who is now male), it is time to have a bit of tea-time chit chat.
I just don't like being told that I "Lied" when I really do not see how I lied. Sure, it's great to feel like I didn't lie, but it's only a problem when said OTHER party continues to feel lied to. It's even more difficult when the question is no longer to be talked about. Normally I'd shrug it off, and I can, but I'm not going back to that whole "let's hide things for others benefits" thing.
I just feel an itch, a bother, and I want it gone. Have I really lied? If so, how?
Why is this so significant? It's not, really, it's just a bit of a frustrating twinge in my gut. What did I ever do to deserve those words, "you lied" about such a silly topic? It's clearly me who suffered from whatever stupid little thing I did, and obviously I did not lie, as I did follow up on everything I said. I don't control the fact that emails get sent and things are supposed to get done. Spending 30 extra minutes on the computer should not constitute a lie.
Yes, my wording may have been exaggerated, but that's what happens in fun and good times. I know, hit a nerve much? But it's not just me.
I feel like since you didn't want to discuss the issue, me trying to reconcile my sins within myself right now is rightfully ....I don't want to use a bad term... but making you very upset/frustrated. Really, the feeling is always mutual.
I don't want to be told I lied. It was a silly little comment with which I happily let slip from my mouth, and it was nothing more. I went to brush my teeth, answered a few emails, and went to bed. I would like to either be told that you didn't think I lied, or if you still do, then I would like to spend the rest of the evening reconsidering my ability to tell the truth. It is beginning to feel like hurt, but I'll just grin and bear it.
I am not lying to you.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Some songs I want that I'll forget the titles to
Things by the band "Red"
Whispers in the Dark by Skillet
Diamonds on the Floor
Paralyzer by Finger Eleven
Lovestruck (I think?)
Hit the Floor by Linkin Park
Mad World by Alex Sparks
Whispers in the Dark by Skillet
Diamonds on the Floor
Paralyzer by Finger Eleven
Lovestruck (I think?)
Hit the Floor by Linkin Park
Mad World by Alex Sparks
Monday, March 1, 2010
Majors ftf
http://hotjobs.yahoo.com/career-articles-college_grads_which_ones_earn_the_most-1103 <---wth!
I'm not an econ major OR an engineering major!
Does this mean that I need to go to Dartmouth, Princeton, Harvard, etc? Who can afford that? I mean, I'm aiming for Ivy League, but I don't know if I could ever afford it.
Oh well, *mantra* money does NOT buy happiness...
I'm not an econ major OR an engineering major!
Does this mean that I need to go to Dartmouth, Princeton, Harvard, etc? Who can afford that? I mean, I'm aiming for Ivy League, but I don't know if I could ever afford it.
Oh well, *mantra* money does NOT buy happiness...
Saturday, February 13, 2010
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